第一章 那些少年的岁月 第二章 恋人的感觉 第三章 除夕之歌 第四章 空中的思念 第五章 再抱你一次
秋天过去了。自从那一次之后，我没有再见过林方文。 一天，我接到宋小绵的电话： “这个周末你有空吗？我的女儿满月了。” “你生了孩子啦？”我惊讶。 “到这个周末便一个月了，知道你忙，进医院时没有通知你。” “我一定来。” “徐起飞也会来的，你介不介意？” “当然不介意，他怎么样了？” “还是老样子。” 我和迪之、光蕙一同出席小绵女儿的弥月宴。小绵胖了很多，已经无法令人联想起当年排球队里窈窕 的小姑娘了。没想到久违的叶青荷和刘欣平都回来了。青荷在意大利定居，她的职业很冷门，是名画修补专家。她去年嫁了给一位画家。只有青荷这种从来不用为生 活忧愁的女人，才有资格爱才子。欣平在英国嫁给一名脑科专家，在那里落地生根，去年还生了一个女儿。 “时间过得真快，我们现在这副样子，不可能再打排球了。”欣平慨叹，“我真羡慕你们，还是自由自在。” 我和迪之、光蕙是有苦自己知。 “乐姬来了！”青荷说：“她愈来愈漂亮。”’ “你那位开法拉利跑车的男朋友呢？”迪之揶揄她。 “你说哪一个？”乐姬得意洋洋问迪之。 “把你赶下车的那一个。你有很多男朋友把你赶下车的吗？”迪之笑着问她。 乐姬的脸色登时沉下来。她大概知道那天晚上是谁把名贵香槟从高空倒在她身上了。 徐起飞独个儿来了，我不知道跟他说什么好，两个人尴尬地笑起来。 “最近还要常常到北京吗？”他问我。 “这一年都在香港。” 开席了，我和徐起飞分开坐，他跟同桌的同事谈笑风生，也许他已复原过来。散席后，青荷提议我们几个老同学找个地方喝茶叙旧，我上前跟徐起飞告别。 “你有时间去喝杯咖啡吗？”他问我。 青荷和欣平她们在等我，我有些犹豫。 “如果你没空，算了吧。”徐起飞很失望。 “不，我可以。” 我不想徐起飞失望，告诉青荷我会迟一点到。 我和徐起飞去了一家咖啡室。 “我还以为你恨我呢。”我跟他说。 “我说过不会恨你的，但人总需要一段时间去复原。” 他低头喝着咖啡，是那么温柔，那么坚强。我突然明白我为什么不爱他，因为他不需要我，他不会因为爱情而堕落，但林方文会的。 离开餐厅，我们在中环走了一段路。经过一家画廊时，我赫然发现那幅大嘴巴费安娜画的画，主角是林方文。他只有一只眼睛，没有一张完整的脸，没有嘴巴、鼻子或耳朵，只有费安娜、我和林方文知道画中的少年是林方文。 画廊老板是一对年轻的外籍夫妇。 “你们是从哪儿得到这幅画的？”我问店主夫妇。 他们告诉我，是从一家结束营业的画廊买回来的。 “画画的人，你们认识吗？” “费安娜？我们认识，她离开香港很久了。” “你想买这幅画？”徐起飞问我。 “我买不起的。” “这幅画似乎不太受欢迎，一直无人问津。”男主人说。 “我看不出这幅画有什么特别。”徐起飞说，“是一个人吗？” “我们走吧。”我离开画廊。 我曾经为那幅画伤心，费安娜也曾珍之重之，她终于留下画走了。除我以外，也许世上再没有一个女人牵挂它了。 徐起飞把我送到我和青荷她们约定的咖啡室外面。 “谢谢你。”我跟他说。 他微笑。 “这个除夕你会怎样度过？”他问我。 “还不知道，你呢？” “我会在医院值班，毕竟这一天是我们的分手纪念日。” 我目送他离去，感觉突然很陌生。 咖啡室里，青荷、欣平、迪之、光蕙在等我。 “还以为你不来呢。”青荷说。 “怎么会呢？你们在谈什么？” “爱情啦，婚姻啦，还有孩子。”欣平说。 我悲哀地笑了。不久之前，我们还在谈论第一次月经、发育、乳房的大小、胸罩和排球，现在竟然谈到婚姻和孩子，人生本来就很残酷。
一个女人，一生之中，无论如何要当一次第三者。做过第三者，才会明白，爱一个人，是多么凄凉。我们想要的人，并非常常可以得到。 爱情到底是吞噬还是回吐？有时候，我想把你吞下肚里去，永不分离。有时候，我会想把你吐出来，还你自由，也还我自由。 我们总是宁愿相信，两个曾经深爱过的人，分开之后，仍然有一条绳子联系着的。寂寞或失意的时 候，我们会拉紧那条绳子，想念绳子另一端的人；他现在过着怎样的生活呢？他爱着谁呢？离别之后，他会不会为了使我刮目相看而更加努力？他会想念着我吗？还 是，这一切一切，只是女人的一厢情愿？我们总是希望旧情人没法忘记自己，一辈子受尽思念的折磨。多么善良的人，在这个节骨眼上，还是残忍和贪婪的。 对于出现在自己所爱的男人身边的任何一个女人，我们总是有许多联想的。他会爱上她吗？一生之中，我们重复着多少次这样的忧虑？这些微小的妒忌，本来就是爱情的本质，也许是毫无根据，毫无道理的。 爱，总是有遗憾的。阴晴圆缺，并不单单是月色。 人生总是要我们在遗憾中领略圆满。不是吗？我们从分离的思念中领略相聚的幸福。我们从背叛的痛苦中领略忠诚的可贵。我们从失恋的悲伤中领略长相厮守的深情。 女人要是诅咒自己所爱的男人，最终受到惩罚的，原来还是她自己。 幸福，不过是一种妥协。懒惰的人，是比较幸福的。他们不愿意努力去寻觅，自然也不会有痛苦和失望。 喜欢一个人，是不会有痛苦的。爱一个人，才会有绵长的痛苦。当然，男人给女人的快乐，也是世上最大的快乐。 回忆是不可以代替的，人也不可以代替。然而，旧的思念会被新的爱情永远代替。 爱对方多一点还是被对方爱多一点，从来不是我们选择的。我们所向往的爱情，跟我们得到的，往往是两回事。
The basic contentThis book is written inside more, in fact, is the friendship of women and women: three good friends Cheng Yun, Judy, and Chen Guanghui their own to find their own bread tree. Their 13-year-old understanding of friendship from the volleyball team began experiencing growing with laughter, the confusion of first love, love and hate, sorrow and pain - when I look back, we all have love fallen, however, friendship is eternal.
DirectoryChapter IThose young yearsChapter IIFeeling of loversChapter IIINew Year's Eve songChapterThe air thoughtsChapterTo hold you once more
Read fragmentThe autumn passed. Since that time, I have not seen Linfang Wen.
Day, I received a phone Songxiao cotton:
"Are you free this weekend? My daughter the full moon."
"You gave birth to the child?" I was surprised.
This weekend will be a month, know you are busy, the hospital did not inform you. ""I must."
Xu take-off will come to you mind? "
"Of course not, how he is doing?"
"Still the same."
Di and I, light Wai attended the births of small cotton daughter banquet. Small cotton fat, has not reminiscent of a slim little girl where the volleyball team. I did not expect a long absence, Yeh charge and Liu Xinping back. Green charge to settle in Italy, her career is very popular, painting repair expert. Last year she was married to a painter. Only Tsing charge this never used for the woman in the sorrow of living, are eligible to love wit. Yan Ping to marry in the UK a brain specialist, put down roots there, and last year gave birth to a daughter.
"Time flies fast, we are now putting on airs, call volleyball." Yan Ping lament, "I envy you, or free."Di and I, light LOH suffer in silence.
Yue Ji! "Green charge, said:" She is more and more beautiful. "'
You who opened Ferrari's boyfriend? "Di of teasing her.
"You said what?" Yue Ji triumphantly asked Di.
"You get out that your boyfriend you get out?" Di of a smile asked her.
Yue Ji the house in his face at once. She probably know that night who the expensive champagne poured from a height on her.
Xu take off by herself to, and I do not know what to say to him, two people embarrassed laugh.Also often go to Beijing? "He asked me.
"This year in Hong Kong."
Open seats, and I take off and Xu to sit separately, he told colleagues of the same table laughing, perhaps he has come back. The Sanxi the Green Shima superba.et Champ.against proposed several of our old classmates to find a place to drink tea renew old friendships, and I went up with Xu takeoff farewell."You have time to go for coffee?" He asked me.
Green charge and welcomes the level they are waiting for me, I hesitated."If you do not have, forget it." Xu takeoff very disappointed."No, I can."
I do not want to Xu take-off disappointment, told Green charge I would to a later time.I went to a cafe and Xu takeoff.
"I thought you hated me." I told him.
"I said do not hate you, but the total will take some time to recover."
He looked down drinking coffee, so gentle, so strong. I suddenly understood why I do not love him, because he does not need me, he will not because of love Fallen, but Lin Fangwen will.
Left the restaurant, we walked a little way in Central. After a gallery, I was surprised to find a photograph of mouth Bafeianna paintings, the protagonist is Lin Fangwen. He had only one eye, without a full face, mouth, nose or ears, only Fei Anna, and Lin Fangwen I know the juvenile is in the painting Linfang Wen.The gallery owner is a young foreign couple.
"You are Where did you get this picture?" I asked the owner couple.
They told me they bought from one end of the operating gallery.
Painting, you know? "
"Fei Anna? We recognize that, she left Hong Kong for a long time.""Do you want to buy this painting?" I Xu takeoff.
"I can not afford."
"This painting does not seem popular, has been nobody cares." Man of the house."I do not see this picture nothing special." Takeoff Xu said, "is a person?""Let's go." I left the gallery.
I have been sad for the picture, and weight of Fei Anna has Jane, she finally left the painting to go. Other than myself, and perhaps the world no longer a woman worried about it.
Xu takeoff sent me to a cafe outside and green charge they agreed.
"Thank you." I said to him.
"This New Year's Eve you will be able to pass?" He asked me.
"Do not know about you?"
"I will be on duty at the hospital, after all, the day we broke up the anniversary."I watched him leave, feeling suddenly very strange.
Coffee room, the green charge, Yan Di of light LOH.
"Thought you were not coming." Green charge.
"But how? What are you talking about?"
"Love, Marriage Rights, as well as children." Yan Ping said.
I smiled sadly. Not long ago, we are still talking about the first period, development, breast size, bra, and volleyball, but now it comes to marriage and children, life is inherently cruel.Famous sentence
A woman, their lives, in any case, when the first third party. Done a third party, will understand the love a person, how desolate. We want people do not often get.
Love is in the end swallowed or taking? Sometimes, I want you to swallow the stomach, never separated. Sometimes, I want you to spit it out, free, and still I am free.
We always prefer to believe that two people ever loved, separation, there are still associated with a rope. Lonely or frustrated, we will tighten the rope, and I miss the people of the rope the other end; He is now living a kind of life? He loves who? After the separation, he will not to make me sit up and work harder? He will miss me? Or All in all, just a woman's wishful thinking? We always hope that the old flame can not forget their life suffered the torture of missing. How good people at this point, or cruel and greedy.The men around their love of a woman, and we always have many associations. He will fall in love with her? Lifetime, we repeated the number of such worries? These tiny jealousy, has always been the nature of love, perhaps unfounded, unjustified.
Love, there is always regret. Wanes, not just the moonlight.
Life is always a satisfactory taste of regret. Is not it? From the separation of thoughts, we appreciate the happiness together. We appreciate the loyalty from the pain of betrayal valuable. A taste to stay together the affection from the lovelorn sadness.
The woman I curse their love of man, and ultimately punished, the original or her own.Happiness, but is a compromise. The lazy man is happy. They do not want to try to look for, naturally there will be no pain and disappointment.
Like a person, is not painful. Love a person, will have lingering pain. Of course, the man to a woman's happiness, but also the greatest joy in the world.
Memories can not be replaced, people do not substitute. However, the old thoughts will never substitute for a new love.
Love each other a little more or the other love of a little more, has never been our choice. We are longing for love, we get are often two different things.